Cruising

I am in no way a supporter of the, "Date Movie", "Epic Movie", "Scary Movie" mash-up of hit movie comedies.

But, I saw this Tom Cruise bit from "Super Hero Movie" and was really impressed by this guy impression. It's really fuckin' good.





That being said, I'm still not going to see it. Simply because they are always sad attempts at pop-culture comedy. I can't support that.

New Blog

So here it is.

The Mabuse Diaries.

This blog will cover all of my exciting adventures while I'm out taking photos.

I also wrote most of another FGP and worked on getting some assets together for a pitch this next week.

Still no gym, which bothers me,but apparently not enough to get my ass back in there.

Again With The Right

Did court stuff this morning, long and tedious, but it's done, out of the way, moving on...yay!

I've started the new blog which will be up tomorrow or Sunda depending on how pro-active I am. It'ss fun and true and that's what I want. Plus all original pictures taht go along with the stories, so it adds that extra kick of tobasco. I actually don't know if that's true, but it was fun to write.

Also I have been working on an idea that might turn into smething. i like it, but will need the help of my crew (the crew) to help solidify it to try and sell. It has potential and that's the most important part in todays fast moving high tech society. (again more fluff to make it sound big and exciting to people who aren't me.

Still no gym. Dammit man I just gotta fuckin' go!.

And I found this quote today that Arthur C. Clarke said he wanted as his epitaph.

"He never grew up; but he never stopped growing."

That is just brilliant.

Left Foot

So I went out yesterday to play around with a new wide-angle lens I bought. It’s a 10-20mm. That means I can take some very wide shots and get some nuts-o distortion when I want. It’s pretty crazy and will make for some interesting photos. I also ordered a 75-200 telephoto, which is on the way. So we’ll see what kind of stuff I get.

Still didn’t get to the gym, but feeling more motivated.

Did go out to lunch with a friend and then caught a Bava double feature and dinner that evening with another friend. So I get bonus points for socialization, right?

I did some brainstorming on FGP ideas, but nothing solid. I’ll do more of that while I’m at court today…Oh yeah, court.

Weeeeeee. Some outstanding traffic tickets that I didn’t know about because they were sent to the old address. Now I get to go in and explain I’m an idiot and ask for a reduction. We’ll see how that goes.

So, onward! Forward! To battle!

Right Foot

I may not have gone to the gym, but I did go out this morning and take some pictures, then I went home and wrote an FGP episode. So that’s a pretty good start. And now I update the blog to let you know I’m finding some footing.

I may also have a new blog soon. It will be in addition to this one. It’s going to be the true adventures of myself when I’m out taking photos. There are some fun things that take place and I figured instead of telling them here, I’ll tell them there along with the corresponding photos. I’ll have that up soon, because I caught a fun story today from one of my…models?

So, that’s yet another project for me to get going.

Oh and I went to court to try and get copies of tickets, but had to run all over the place just to find out they have to mail me the tickets and other such bureaucratic stuff.

Onward.

Now What?

I haven’t been writing a lot lately. As a matter of fact, I haven’t been doing a lot of things lately. I can blame my former job for this, but as we all know that would be silly. I am responsible for my actions, my thoughts, my well-being, my blah, blah, blah.

I’ve fallen off of several wagons apparently. Not drinking or drugs mind you. I’m still very clean and sober. But what about my writing, what about my health, what about my fuckin’ podcast?

Man I’ve slid down a very log slope and feel like I have a lot of catching up to do. Just thinking about it is exhausting. That isn’t good. It keeps me from even attempting the first step. And that’s all I have to do, take that first step and follow it up with the next step. Don’t look down the road to search for a finish line. I know there isn’t one. So I should look down at my feet and just take that first step. I don’t need an overall plan, just a single move.



That’s what I should start on, the single move. Get used to it, then add in the next one. Easy cheesy.

So a small step. Tell you tomorrow what I’ve done. Let you in on those steps and see if I get anywhere. Don’t think about failure, because there is nothing to fail at. Just movement.


See, I’ve written my first blog post. One step, no big deal.

Call Me K

In Franz Kafka’s “The Trial” a character named only K is arrested and put on trial…hence the title. The thing is he is never told what he did. He has no idea what he did. He goes through the story trying to figure out, but never discovers an answer. It sounds like an extremely frustrating situation and I can now say that it is.

I was fired, laid off, let go, from my job on Monday. The only excuse I was given was, “Business reasons.” I was in shock. So was everyone else. My superiors were not told why I was terminated. I have no idea why they got rid of me. No one has any idea except for a few higher ups. It is just odd, confusing, frustrating.



I kept asking what I did and all they’d tell me was the same thing over and over. Business reasons. Business reasons. Business reasons. I didn’t understand then, I still don’t. They said I was a great employee, I was an excellent editor, it was just…business reasons.

There were other positions that I could have moved to. They knew I wanted to produce and there were spots opening up. But they kicked me out anyway.

I can run it over and over in my head. I can let it continue to bother me. I can simply accept it was business reasons.

I know there are all sorts of things in life that never have closure. Maybe I simply need to accept things as they are and move on. I’ll just keep moving forward and see where it leads me.